neva hav i felt so stressed up b4..If foc performance item wasn't enuff to kill me, my kins hav to join in too. yes i noe they are being concern but they just tink i've put in too much commitment to gls that i've neglected everybody else ard. I wish i could take a break for even a day but pressure to put up the best performance we can give is preventing that.
During pract not everybody is putting in effort to practise. I knew they could hav done better, its not fair to those who put in so much effort to cover up for those who dun giv a damn at all. It's lik one dancer hav to put in double effort to cover up for the dancer that gives a hack care attitude, imagine dere's more than one such person in one item, everybody else in the grp prolly die from exhaustion.
worse thing is...i fricking sprain my ankle at the wrong point of time, and i can't join everybody while dancing, only to see that things are going fine. And i can even kena shoot for sitting down due to tired ankle but hack it. I gt cranky, stressed up and said harsh things, i wun use stress as an excuse cos everyone else are stress...ok at least for those who do care a lot bout foc, can't say much for those who dun commit much. That offended a few n i dunno if thats the reason, but some start taking things into their own hand lik not coming on time, giving themselves breaks once donald n my backs are turned, n not taking practise seriously anymore. Is lik now say untill dunno wad to say liao cos say them then not happy. That don't apply to everyone of course. I really appreciated those who gave their understanding n putting in effort to make the performance a gd one, its jus a few thats pulling everyone dwn....
is lik i brokedown twice already, i seriously dunno wad to do anymore. Tmr will b the last pract, jus hope everybody makes the best out of it.
