Hmmm...why is it dat lately ppl get grumpy n moody easily. though they dun do it in sch they show it at home or stuff...take me fer example. i'm less cheerful these days, practically when dere's sumthing really really funny den i'll luff or when my modd is beta then i'll luff but most of the time i'm jus cold. i can sense dat myself, giving ppl murderous stares n venting my anger fer no reason. i'm not sure if it's really pre-exam stress dat's turning me this way or sum other things..i really dunno... den sum of my frenz..dunno y...hav been tinking very negatively lik dat lo. when they failed a test or sumthing thier morael jus go way down den they study lik hell but does dat really helps...i doubt so...den sum are lik almost giving up hope on themselves lik dat...frankly speaking...is sec 3 tis torturous? well ...maybe it is...cos whether u wil lreatin or drop to NA depends on ur results...haiz well...here's a saying i heard b4...

" if u tink u can't, u can't. if u tink u can, there is still some hope so tink tink positive so at least  u still ahv the hope to count on"

I tink it's really meaningful n logical..it's all the human brain...once u tink negative u will be negative...well...enuff of my crap..gonna slp if not i'll be beat at sch...*yawnz*

1st of all must intro my shi gong.

during physics 2dae danny n yz were making a lot of noise n wendy was pissed off by the 2 of them cos during peer tutoring bck den wendy n i were toking den danny shot her a bu-shuang look den A maths he n yz were making a lot of noise too. so 2dae when they making noise, ms teo scolded them n i shot them the pissed off look + murderous stare n wendy chao happy cos ms teo n i "help" her bai ping the 2 of them. aft reading wendy's blog i oso felt dat danny chao guo fen lo. hw can he tell kai xin to tell kai le to stop hanging out wiv jasper jus bcoz he dun lik japser. i admit i dun lik japer oso but i tink jasper can be nice if ppl ard him is nice to him to. it's not lik danny can control ppl to make frenz wiv whom...jus sum petty guy i guess newayz he's so damn immature..*fancy playing pokemon cards at tis age* den kai xin oso super wad lo. so wad if she's kai le's sister...she carn control his circle of frenz..as long he gets only wiv good ppl can le. dnno wads up wiv her aft less than a year...last yr she's very refine n noes wad r the rite things n the limit fer things but now she so wad le lo. she damn auto de lo...dun care bout wad ppl tink...i'm really getting piss of le. dunno wth is wiv my cls...there are sum reallyt nice ppl though they owaes fool ard n ppl tink they are bad but they are much beta than those ppl who act good in front of others but turn their claws at thier own ppl...wad is the world cumin to manz. den sum ppl only tink of themselves. when they studying i cannot make noise de lo..muz giv them the perfect enviorment to study den when i studying fer test they can make noise de lo. i noe maintaining in 01 cls is very impt to u cos u dun wanna lose face or smth but dun nid to lik dat de lo. tink i dun wanna maintain at sec3 is it. it's not lik whole world only u guys nid to study lo. n sum ppl show attidude bcos they carn get thethings they wan or things the way they wan it to be. den when ask wad happen, all i get is sum murderous stare or cold shoulder. not happy wiv me cannto speak up is it..it's not lik god gave u mouth fer display...u gave it to u to put it in good n proper use. showing attidude does not mean u will win or wad de lo. not only dat lo..everytime i am the one who hav to giv in n see ppl lian se de..i'm sick of dat le lo. den sum ppl only noe hw to insult or giv bad comments bout the things ppl whe nthey carn even do it. tis are the kind of ppl i detest mos. not every1 is perfect, ppl hav theyweka ares ok. i hav my limits de ok..if anything goes beyond my limits i will get so pissed off dat u wish u neva wanna apper b4 me.

noe why i detest QTSS, cos todae they damn act la. cos we had to perform the fushion dance at bukit batok home fer the age. Den Qss was oso performing la. when they see us only, they giv dat stupid look lo den we oso hack care la. aft dat they diao us lo...lik they dance very nice lik dat. lik crap la...dance untill so soft, no energy den action so small...try to act sexy, all crap la. den when we dance dat time they giv the "big-deal" kind of look. when we finish our performance, the crowd cheered fer us n guess wad...the crowd din even giv the QTSS gals a damn lo. next...best thing...We kena encore! Get to perform again n QTSS din kena den they bu shuang lo. We all started smirking at them cos b4 dat they made fun of our dance gals cos they gt to go on stage to teach ppl simple dance steps. when everything finish den going bck, The QTSS ppl were walking pass us, obviously bu shaung lo den Ain said "aiya...sum ppl jealous la" den i shouted " of course they shld la!" wah seh...so shiok lo. den on the bus way bck kip saying them...lol. neways the QTSS gals dun look good and they carn dance well...wonder hw they'll fare in next yr's syf...wahahahahahaha.

I'm so damn pissed off by dat bloody fat ass frm 301 n dat thing frm my cls. Dat fat ass tink she very li hai is it? lik crap lo. den keep going ard say i hypocrite, backstabber...dun hav lo. pls la..if u dunno the meaning of these 2 words pls check up the dictionary la...it's not lik an 01 study dunno hw to use the dictionary unless u tyco tyco get into 301 n anyhow mix inside n be sum loser poser lik ur fren. tell u lo..i've been damn linear to u le lo..wad more do u wan..dun test my limits, dun tink 1 dun dare punch u lo..doesn't mean u gal i'll let u off. u tink u stick out ur tougue at me very cute is it...lik sai lo...act cute only. smmre u damn ba po lo...onyl noe hw to gossip n tok crap. oh ya....dt thing in my cls is really getting on my nerve...she tink she gt backing frm the relief teacher i scare is it...pls lo..u close to the relief teach is bcoz jess close to him den u anyhow mix in de lo. dat relief teach is jus a TAB [typical ah beng]...only listen to one-sided story...u say i bhb den go look at the mirror urself la..dunno who dat time confess to you lin wan lo...who more bhb...tell me la. stupid ass. dun go ard ACBC-ing n As-ing la. i noe u despo fer attention but no nid to do it tis way la. more ppl will detest u li kdat n if u tink a lot ppl detest me rite...more ppl detest u than me lo. giv u a piece of advice any dentist will giv u...go fix ur teeth wiv braces la..u'll look better aft 2 yrs...it's much better stayin lik dat fer the whole life. if u tink u're smarter than , dats crapn if u tink u're popular, it's all thks to jessica ok but ppl dun giv a damn bout u lo. get a life will u...n pls lo..its not lik u carn dance, u're jus not wokring fer it...ppl wanna help u, u treat us lik crap lo. u deserve the fact of not being in the SYF. not i wanna say u guys de lo..is u all wanna start crappy trouble de lo..if u tink u're stronger than den u're wrong...get a life, u'll neva win. so go study n stay quiet n none of us will crap.

Aft eng paper has to giv carina n alice tution again. Tutored alicia 1st cos carina hav counsillor meeting. @ 1st b4 carina came, me n alicia were lik so sian cos no crapper ard. when carina came n started crapping, we xian her too noisy...lol. den carina keep kena "murdered" by me cos she keep dun wanna do the work so i act pissed ...lol. next we went to library...see so guai nehz...lol. we went dere jus to read magazines only cos dere's lik 20 mins b4 my dance pract. 2.45 i went to dance room it was still empty ..i mean the indian dancers were dere. den bada lik so late den cum lo. d3en malay dancers were late. when every1 was here...still haven start cos bada was doing the frease thingy. so me, serina n yun kai started wondering ard the sch b4 1 of the malay dancers came to tell us to go bck.  aft lik 1 hr practice was over so went to carina's house to help her set up her iguana acc. her house now is lik chao messy lo...lol. last time i went ot her house still ok...very nice n cosy n nw it's lik ..woah! messy niaz...lol. Saw carina's cream-puff too. cream-puff is the name of her dried puffer-fish. very cute sia...lol. On my way bck home saw wendy so chatted wiv her den walked bck home. So sian manz so i decied to try new recipe. Sardine baked rice. sounds gross but it's chao nice. lol. oh well...gtg study fer tml's F&N self study...carn afford to fail it...lol 

2dae i had my english paper!! is ok lo but i scare the gan fail me again den i die. Paper 1 is letter to forum plus freestyle riting..i mean they giv u topic u rite it urself so dere was 5 topic:

1. should examinations be abolished? why?
2. write about an occasion which gave u a feeling of success and encouraged u to work hard
3. It is said that teenagers are too young to fall in luv. Do u agree? Why?
4. Describe your favourite haunt n why u choose to frequent the palce.
5. Hope

At 1st wanna rite Q2 den rite 1 sentence dunno how to continue so i skip to do the part b: letter to a forum. Finish le den finally decide to do Q3. so rote a lot of crap. The starting of my paragraphs are -i tink we are too immature fer love - Love is too dangerous - love is too hard fer us to take den antoher wan is on neglection of frenz de. 1st paragraph is into den aft dat i rite the points lo. dere's tis part in paragraph 2 i rote " lovei s about giving the other party happiness but obviously teens our age do not understand that" den paragraph 4 i rote " sum gals torture themselves by slashing their risk. i tink it's ridiculously stupid and it pains to see teens lik me do stupid things lik dat. almost the whole thing all crap lo. Den when i came home i realise i cud hav ritten abou the nicoll highway incident fer Q5 but nvm..wad is done is done. dere was 2 compre fer Paper 2 but lucky only nid to do 1 summary if not i tu xue manz. My answers all ok lo but sum i jus agar agar and de. summary i rote jus nice 150 words...very risky. i feel lik go see ms gan tml ask her mark my paper 1st den tell me if i pass or fail cos i scare my 5 subs cannot help me. Mama say cannot jus pass..muz a least B4...HOW!?

Yoyo! lets make a bet...tml i sure fail english de! i no confidence in english le lo! lost all hopes...haiz. newayz 2dae so shiok...only went fer 1 period of lesson. cos 1st 4 periods gt performance den we excused all the way till 11.30. den i went fer 1 period of F&N den Mrs wee neva cum 2dae so go relife den later PC neva do anything oso. so stupid manz..the dance thing i dance wrongly..wth lo.
newayz 2dae self study so qi lo. i memorise 1 whole chunk of notes den only a bit came out den i mixed up the stuffs lo. den the 301 idiot who marked my paper dunno hw to mark de lo..correct oso mark wrong. newayz i failed so stay bck do the bloody corrections. aft dat gave carina n alicia chem tuition. I've jus became their royal tutor cos carina's a princess la so i'm her tutot therefore i'm a royal tutor...lol. so sianz manz so i start making new posters fer my blog...chao wu liao lo. den as usual shi gong owaes crap de la. tml english paper la...i scare i breakdown at the exam hall...how? haiz...tml aft exam oso giving my royal tuitis tution again...haiz...

Yoyo! lets make a bet...tml i sure fail english de! i no confidence in english le lo! lost all hopes...haiz. newayz 2dae so shiok...only went fer 1 period of lesson. cos 1st 4 periods gt performance den we excused all the way till 11.30. den i went fer 1 period of F&N den Mrs wee neva cum 2dae so go relife den later PC neva do anything oso. so stupid manz..the dance thing i dance wrongly..wth lo.
newayz 2dae self study so qi lo. i memorise 1 whole chunk of notes den only a bit came out den i mixed up the stuffs lo. den the 301 idiot who marked my paper dunno hw to mark de lo..correct oso mark wrong. newayz i failed so stay bck do the bloody corrections. aft dat gave carina n alicia chem tuition. I've jus became their royal tutor cos carina's a princess la so i'm her tutot therefore i'm a royal tutor...lol. so sianz manz so i start making new posters fer my blog...chao wu liao lo. den as usual shi gong owaes crap de la. tml english paper la...i scare i breakdown at the exam hall...how? haiz...tml aft exam oso giving my royal tuitis tution again...haiz...

kaoz! i tink i'll flunk my english again...suddenly i jus lsoe all comfidence. my geo cls tes tonyl get 2/15..i itnk i slacken alot...way too much...haiz. i tink i beta bcuk up. nw i can only relie on science, chinese, poa, F&n n maths to get me to 4E cos i now i'll fail english so i hav to pass 5 subs..pass...but i hope out of the 5 i get 3 As i very happy le. i damn scared lor...wad if i retain...i'll probably die a borrible death...die of humiliation...wadeva! probably i wun blog fer days..study fer my finals...i've gotta promote to 4E!!! newayz so tired now but gotta prepare notes cos giving carina n alicia chem tuition tml...jus setting them Qs den frm dere teach them. yay! i can watch naruto ealier le cos borrowing frm sum1 else..lol. carn wait fer FYE to be over n naruto movie to cum out. lol. my exam schedule is as follow

Day	Subject Paper
23/9	English
8/10	Chinese P1 & P2
11/10	Social-studies F&N
12/10	Geography
13/10	Chemsitry
14/10	E-Maths
15/10	POA
18/10	Physics
20/10	Chinese P3

i'm dead confident i'll pass my : Science, chinese, F&N, POA n E-maths...the rest can faint de la the results......

It's so annoying lo. hw would u feel when sum1 jus take ur things wivout asking u den still use untill lik it's their own de. Hw wud u feel when sum1 comes up to u n start toking crap n making themselves sound very smart...i'm so damn bloody pissed off lo. 2dae maths lesson. sum1 ask me fer my correction fluid den i lend him la...when he return me...sum1 else jus take frm my table wivout askin me lo...ncm. aft dat dat person wanna take again i kept staring at the person n u noe wad...she looked bck at me n still take my thigns lor den use untill lik her own de...wth. den jus now...sum1 keep saying we sec3s copying them watch naruto. cannot is it...not all of us as free as u to noe such things ...so wad if we are slower...if u say we copy den u're oso copying cos u're not the 1st wan watching it....wth manz....stop acting smart even if u are cos it's totally disgusting

I officially annouce dat i'm totally into Naruto now!! Sasuke chao shuai nehz den Naruto so cute but best wan is Kakashi so cute n cool! influenced by a lot of ppl, my cousins, clsmates, bro...den nw i super crazy liao..lol.  Warning! Naruto is 100% addictive! ONce u start watching or get ur hands on anything related to Naruto, U will not stop de! lol! so angry manz...i only watched 1st 8 epi n 95 + 96. Aft Fye borrowing frm shi gong aft glen, yu hang n ryan watch finish..sian. I gonna buy the comic liao! cannot resist niaz...lol. At tis rate i tnk i'll go broke manz...lol cos i nid to buy loads of things lol. dad say maybe aft Fye he will allow me to Dl the NAruto series. Ystd Jeremy was telling me epi 101 gt reveal Kakashi's face...so qi dai to see manz...gt a feeling is chao shuai..lol. Den jus now shi gong was telling me epi 80+ Itachi Trashed Kakashi but i dun care! i still lik kakashi cos itachi kill his whole clan except his younger bro..sasuke. Itachi's nw the mos powerful ninja in the anime but i dun lik him! so bian tai! kill his the Uchiha clan, his family..omg...lucky sasuke survive manz!

It was so lamez man. At english 2dae Ms Gan return us our compre fer peer marking so is ur clsmates help u mark ur work. So i was telling wendy " hey...skarly u get li jiong wan ..lol" and guess wad...i gt danny's paper -_-" i was lik  "wth" den radha , jamuna n especially wendy dey were lik luffing non-stop but who cares...i dun lik him le anyway. den when i marking the paper wendy keep saying " muz mark more linearly" and other crap la...i so damn angry manz cos my "curse" backfired. aft mark finish le hav to giv bck to original student n guess wad...li jiong gt wendy's paper! LOL! Den wendy kena ji siao by me untill very jia lat. lucky next lesson was geo if not she sure die...lol. so tired manz. aft sch ahd self-study progamme..F&N de...n we din noe. so all F&N students nid not stay bck fer corrections..lol. den aft self study went fer dance. The teach. finish teaching the dance le! only left the finale part which oso repeating actions la. WoOoOO..carn wait  fer next year's SYF...lol. I keep having dreamz dat we din get gold..CHOI! of course in reality i hope we get gold...den we will be 5 consecutive years of gold le!

Well...today is the last day of sch n i haven really finished my hols hmwrk XP..only finished my sci hmwrk but i haven done my maths...probably be kill by mrs choong lol. but gonna xue zun's fer "reference" lol. tuition ended at 4 today cos teach wanna hav xtra revision wit us so we were doing loads of wrkshts today. Aft tuition went to central KFC meet cheryl to get bck my bag cos dat time went to sentosa she borrow my bag...scared to dirty her's as her's was white. bought dinner hm fer dad n yang frm broadway. came back dun feel lik touching maths hmwrk so made the naruto poster *points up at welcome poster* . Hw's it...i tink it's really kindda plain though...lol. oh manz....so bored...gotta go hav dinner now...be bck later...lol

moi dad's fren manage to get "A Walk To Remember" dvd so he rented to us. I watched it tis morning and it was touching. i nearly cried at certain parts cos it was so sad. Jaymie passed away in the end but Leonard sort of fulfilled all her wishes lik getting a tattoo; be @ 2 places @ once etc but the best thing he ever did is he was the miracle dat jaymie witness. he was sum punk bck den but ever since he hanged out wiv jaymie, he changed completely. When jaymie told him she had luekemia he cried..and i cried cos it was lik...dunno why la..my emotions jus got the beta of me. and they gt married b4 jaymie passed away aft summer.  Dere's tis quote which i find it very meaningful n impt to those who are in a relationship now...well..here goes.

 "Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous.
Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish.
Love does not take offense ans it is not resentful..."

meaningful ritez. neway today my bro gave my dad attitude n his fone gt confiscated again. actually i tink my bro really sux man. he n his stinky crappy attitude. now he's lik sum ah beng lo n i din teach him dat. ever since he hanged out wiv those ppl he really changed...haiz. carn believe now i hav a monster fer a bro and dats major crap manz. I jus hope he scores well and promotes to 2E and not the last class. Having a crappy bro li kdat is really...argh...no words to describe hw bad it is.

haiz...so very disappointed in sum1...to tink i still treat dat person so good den tok bad behind my bck...n not jus me lo...haiz. dat time sam tell me de i din really wanna believe cos i trusted u but to tink u are so evil. if not fer ..... i wun noe dat u are lik dat lo...i noe nw u hav sum1 else but u nid not neglect ur own frenz..u toally let us down lo. if u really not happy den tell me face to face lo..i can handle it beta u tink i can... u share all ur probs wiv sum1 else rather than ur pals..ok lo..nvm...but dun go ard telling ppl crap say we dun understand u n nv listen to u. dun nid to act kind to put a show fer others lo. n dun act cute cos i see already..hair standing ok. stop trying to attract attention lo cos other ppl see le will very bu shuang de lo den bu the nden cum begging us fer help. if u tink frenz are not impt den dats ur prob...when u lost everything..dun cum lookin fer me...cos i've already  very disappointed wiv u. not dat i;m restricted u going into bgr but u muz tink lo..other ppl tis year gt impt exam. n if u're going to kip giving him u're attention n neglecting ur frenz...u noe how we r tinking? u shld balance it out lo...but if u dun wan..den dats up to u...not forcing u....haiz...jus bear in mind...when he dumps u...who will be dere fer u...tink bout it...reading sam's bl0og..i oso wondering why u din change ur attitude...tell u lo..if u tink ya perfect..u're wrong cos nobody is perfect n stop acting n tinkin dat u are. change dat attitude, remove dat stupid mask n show ur true self, stop deceiving others n urself dat u're sum nice gal when u're not. if u wanna be nice then be...dun keep acting cos dats very lousy acting...only cry when u're scare n stuff...so AS lo...if u want dat attention den carry on la cos i can tell u dat kind of attention is not worth it.

2dae went ot sentosa wiv cheryl, jaz, des n merv. we met at yck mrt station, wanted to take cab but all the drivers dun wan cos gt 5 of us...stupid lo..so in the end we took mrt dere. reach dere took the monorail to palawan beach den start playing in the sea. we buried merv. n cheryl gave him a belly button at the wrong place cos he carn see wads beneath the sand...n we gave him "boobs" lol. latyer the 4 of us went to bathe n made merv look aft our stuff...too bad we din get a tan n cheryl was so angry wiv the sun block..lol. aft lunch super sianz so we went to cinemania n cheated the uncle say jaz still kid but we gt cheated cos dere's a offer say 15 buck fer the rides + cable car ride!!! felt so cheated but we made the man fed up so dun wanna change le. aft cinemania nth to do so slack ard b4 we took the monorail n went rd sentosa fer 1 rd. den cheryl n jaz walk together, merv n des den me n my mp3 lol...kindda regret neva ask ric along XP. den slack untill 7 + went to watch musical fountain...only lik 1/2 hr ...very short. later went bck to to harboufront...the 3 of us took cable car, des n merv took bus cos not enuf $$. so the 3 of us reach 1st n we went to eat mac...cheryl treat me t it cos she pay wiv ez-link car den her card...can eat dunno hw many times mac de lo. we eating n toking den finally the 2 of them came so we finished up n went hm by mrt...so supertired manz...Zzzz

yay! yay! yay! i gt a MP3 le!!
luv my dad manz!! 2dae aft my chem. extra lesson den go buy de. 2dae at
chem quite sian except the teach came late den we wanna send her to RTC..
lol. i rmb-ed 2dae gt tution but hack care den aft lunch at ajisen at
bugis the teach say tution cancelled! woohoo~ the MP3 i bought is
the creative MuVo slim..super flat sia but can store 256 MB. lol..
dats ard 50+ songs nehz..lol. actually i failed my eng n humanities.. :P..but my dad bought it cos my poa n physics improve a lot..frm fail n jus pss jump to A2..hehez.oso bought anew hard disk fer my com cos i tink my hard disk dying soon. super sianz man..tink i sick le la. my cough n cold jus ok den i feel giddy todae..skarly fever *touch wood*

2dae take bck report book + meet e parents session. actually my dad wanna go but in the end he changed his mind...2pid manz. i was taking the registration crap cos cherie they all hav to go listen to blackie tok crap. every year he say the same thing manz..jus dat tis year here he added sum other crap la. den me, jie, joyce n norain sitting outside tok to the teachers. hengz man..if i fail english at FYE, jus hav ta pass 5 subs..piece of cake..lol. tis year dad neva cum super werid niaz..cos every time gt meet
parent session he owaes cum de but he neva cum...super werid. ryan oso super cham. his parents came den his mum ask lin mei hw was his conduct..wahahahaha..chao suay manz. den ms gan oso go say smth..i tink he go hm sure die. den more than half the cls de comments the same lo " whoever's weakness in english has affected he/she's results in combine humanities" lin mei super lazy lo. den jk wan is the same..bhind add a few words only...diaoz sia. xue zun say if he retain or promote as anything other than express, he will commit suicide..lol..i will witness it manz..lol. kaoz eh...if i retain i oso dun wan live liao..crap manz. my dad still gonna buy me a MP3!! yay! lol. jus now oso suan my bro..cos he say
" jie u oso failed english ?" den i say "i fail english is surprising, u fail english is normal" wahahahaha!