tonite's the nite..i very kan jiong!! the results coming out in another 1 hr+. oh man. today aft sch went mdc wait 4 the idols..came quite early sia they all. then o was making board then suddenly wendy say "hey..sebast!" then i turn..i saw ruth n silver ne..then i see somemore..i saw sebast!! then he waved at me..lol. then when he walking..i showed him the sketch i drew of him then he lik an-jioing then i say 'wo dong la..bu xiang dui ma..hur hurz" then he say "mei you la..hen xiang hen xiang..very nice" then eillen also show the sketch her fren drew then he say "wah..u all draw very nice..lol." then he go change his ic fer the pass..then aft dat he wanna walk bck to our table dere cos me n eileen still making board ma. but he stopped to take foto lik dat. then he came to our table then talk to us..then sit down help us sign things then only me n eileen dere lo!! so shuang! we keep talking to him..lol. - wonders where the other ppl go- then took a lot pix wiv him using my fone's self shot then i say" diao..my hand very short" then he was "haha..no la..ok ma" then all the pix quite nice la. then he sign my foto dat time..he wrote on one of the fotos " very thankful for your support and the bottle you gave me! jia you fer you and me!" then eileen was lik saying "hw come talk bout u sure say the bottle one..haha" come to think of it..ya hor..lol. took some of sebast's personal pix..then gt act cool one..so shuai!! oh ya..he cut his hair..lol. then b4 he go in hug him then wish him gd luck n STUPID ME!! told him the 2 forbidden words!! when sebast came out again to look fer things, eileen told him i'm gonna cry le then he shocked then ask why!? then i say "i said the 2 words!!" then he recall [cos i told him bout last wk thingy]..then he luff luff; say nvm la..lol. anyway..he sign our board all gt rite jia you and plus the lucky charms we giv him..sure ok de la..i hope. then all of them go in le then chanel n william came. then chanel a bit paranoid cos she keep thinking she not photogenic then keep wanna see the fotos then she keep saying not nice then i say "no lo..u very pretty so very photogenic" then she keep saying no la no la..cute. then aft dat then took foto wiv william..stupid..he very tall lo..lol. then we slacked until 6+ lik dat wanna go develope foto in the end saw wei lian outside so we talk to him. then darryl came oso..lol. then we surrounding them ma then i keep saying "qing zhu yi! ni yi jing bei bao wei le!" lol..lik those police shows lik dat la. then we went in take fotos wiv wei lian then talk to him. he lik no confidence then we keep telling him jus do his best dat kind of things..lol. then talked bout loads of things then he also very gd cos he allow us add him in msn..lol. then took cab go home..then the taxi-driver very gd!! despite i not enuff money to take the full journey home..he send me all the way..thks uncle! then jus now eileen call me..pass fone to sebast then i tell him i very scare then he lik "haha..i will definitely b more scare then u lo" then i asked him a question then he ans very readily then me n eileen very happy...lol. haiz..it's gonna b the result show soon!!! GOD BLESS SEBASTIAN PLS!!! JUST LET HIM GO TO TOP 12 [COMBINE ALL CONTESTANTS]!!
bread spoke at Thursday, June 30, 2005
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
sebsat rmb me!!
to cheryl: hahaz,,sry bout dat cos u noe why,,,the BITCH made it sound lik u all dun wanna tell us lo..fark her..wadeva..lol!
-- 27 june-- went to eat pizza wiv cheryl; desiree and jazreel aft sch. all ate untill so full...can't move..lol. and b4 dat we were still saying eat rotiBoy fer dessert..hahaz. then on our way to take bus, saw jia ying they all. so since i wanted to find em' anyway..went wiv them then cheryl they all go home. 1st thing i go dere ne is..take ppl's bike! lol. then i started learning the [rollback] and within 1 hr..i manage to do a bit of it somemore no one teach me leh! lol. but muz fu chu dai jia..my leg loads of bruises n cuts cos of the peddle but still feel a sense of achievement..lol. got home..so tired n started doing my hmwrk all these then go slp..lol
--28 june-- dunno why these few days so tired..go sch wanna slp only..argH! anyway..fer the 1st time this yr..i passed my social studies wiv gd marks..lol. so motivated >__<. at night cheryl caleld my fone and said she's wiv sebast at town!! omg..then she wanna pass fone to him then cheryl say it's me la then i heard him say smth lik "oh! wai see" then when he took cheryl's fone the 1st thing he said is "hellO! thks fer your water bottle! thks!" then i so happy cos he rmb me..lol. the i told him "dun wry..i'll vote a lot of u de" then he keep saying thank you..so cute. then when goona end dat time he keep saying "muz supprot me k..support k..hur hurz" then i was lik..okiez..lol. sianz..nidda go do my hmwrk..sianz...
bread spoke at Tuesday, June 28, 2005
Sunday, June 26, 2005
haiz..last day of hols n i shall blog bout wad happen fer the past 4 days..lol --23rd June-- aft xtra chem lesson, went home to bathe etc b4 meeting wendy @ j8 to buy things..hur hurz. wanted to buy smth fer sebast budden can't think of anything to buy. wendy actually suggsested to buy a soccer ball..diaoz. anyway..i wanted to buy ater bottle so we went to royal spoting house see. thn wendy suggested buy water bottle water bottle giv him cos he play soccer then sining so muz drink loads of water so..in the end i bought water bottle fer him -___-". also made one hp thingy at give-a-name giv him..lol. went to Mrs field buy makan then wendy bought muffins fer wei choong. then off we go to meet joyce and kai ling. reached mediacorp. wanted to buy drinks so me n wendy go to the shell station outside..saw sugianto..so told him "jia you". returned to mdc. then i was eating then finish le..gonna walk in then saw jia xin. so i went in inform ppl. then i went to throw things..jus nice she came in so smile smile then walk away. aft dta..i go toilet..coem out only saw jia xin again! then both of us lik shocked..lol. aft dat talked to jia xin n took foto wiv her..hur hurz. eileen n kang le came n we talked bout somethings..heard le..quite disappointed..well..ppl do change ma. slacked untill 9 lik dat then william came..went to let him sign things. then sebast came!! i pass him the stuff then he keep saying thank you..so cute..hahaz. then wanna sign things..hav to wait damn long cos cheryl's grp was lik crowding ard him la. so while waiting..talked to william. lame fella. cos he was readin someone's I-mag..then i say "yao kan jiu yao mai" then he paused then dun wan read liao..then aft dat..he took my 8-days read..then i dun wanna ji siao him liao..hahaz. Then, sebast say cheryl look a bit chubby on foto..then william say him..then i also suan him also..hahaz. anyway..sebast finally signed my mag. then he ask hw to spell my name then i told him la then he say "hey..you [wai] same as mine" then i a bit high liao..hahaz. then wei choong came also...wear untill lik beachboy sia..then i told him and he said "mei you la..wo jiu zhe yang chuan lo" then wendy asked "ni mei chi han lei wei she me jingtian mei you" then he say "ying wei jing tian wo mang zhe shui jiao..lol" then aft dat took foto wiv him. he damn ji siao lo. cos me n eileen short ma..then he keep bending down when take foto wiv us..and we realise smth bout wei choong..hur hurz. then cheryl's grp still wiv sebast then i have to go le but still haven take foto so eileen lik jus interupt say "er sebast..ke yi ken ta pai chao ma..ta yao wei liao" then sebast say ok then jiu take foto wiv me lo..then gt act cute gt normal de..hur hurz. but all still wiv eileen so have to wait fer her to send. aft taking foto i say bye to sebast n wei choong then i chiong go home le..lol. then at nite me n wendy on fone ..aft result show, eileen pass fone from sebast to wendy cos wanna ask things then sebast at 1st thot is me..hahaz. aft dat i go slp liao..hahaz. --24th June-- nth happened much..jus dat i fell aslp i ncls cos i slept late..lol. then aft sch went j8 buy my water bottle then went home le. chatted on the foen wiv wendy n eileen then we were saying tml go bugis de temple pray fer sebast n wei choong n our frenz then go make board. --25th june-- went to see doc n he said i still have to take medication fer my rashes..argH! then aft dat went to meet wendy n eileen. thot i was late but i was ealiest..lol. went to buy our board materials 1st then wanna develope fotos but eileen dat blur kia..bring the cd inside no file..lol. on our way to temple..someone called tell us say the idols will be at west coast so we chiong to temple then pray le chiong to mrt take till dover then take cab to west coast..walked the whole west coast cannot find anyone..not even cheryl they all so we gave up..took 176 to jurong entertainment center to make board. eileen went home 1st so only me n wendy making board..so sianz sia but we kept crappin..lol. at 5 we go home. aft dinner went to find 18o peeps then play catching [i noe it's chilidish but i dun care] until siao..hahaz. heng my bro help me else i sure come home later than my mom..lol. then cheryl called to tell me sebast's ah ma hospitalised..haiz..hope she get well soon! then both cheryl n wendy told me actually the idols were at puggol park! it's lik so far sia..then i lik..diao..hahaz --26th june-- tis morning wendy caleld to tell me dat the idols going to victoria park today but din go cos i haven finished my stuff..is someone tell wendy de n dat someone also told her dat a grp of ppl tell her dun tell us. i hear liao i was lik..wadeva. and the worse thing is..cos dat grp of ppl thot we were at puggol park wiv the idols ystd but in fact it wasn't us!! it's not lik whole world only have one wendy ok. besides..i already said if i see the idols i sure contact them,,they wanna think lik dat also lan lan. then spend the day doing phy, drawing n watching dvds..god..tml's sch..sianz..still haven iron my uniform..argh!!
bread spoke at Sunday, June 26, 2005
Saturday, June 25, 2005
yo! another video of great cls..lol..check it out !!
seems lik time's travelling at the of time n guess wad..it's already last wk of hols N! N! N! i haven done any revision for any subs fer my prelims -________-" but the greastest achievement i'vem ade so far is completing 6 pathetic papers frm higher standard schs in 2 wks "haha". i'm so way behind my schedule..by now i shld already be finishing the last of maths papers..argh! anyway..barely slept 5 hrs last nite cos my slping habit jus change to any time aft 11 b4 3.30 so i was laying dere..thinking bout all the retared things the retarted me had done n then i was trying to shut some farking noise out. source of the farking noise? some neighbour of mine quarrelled wiv boyfriend/husband. and whoever it was sounded lik he/she was destroying the house. can heard cupboards moving n dropping..slamming of doors, screaming..argH! finally! 2 am..i knocked out 2.39..i woke up cos dat bytch/bastard slammed something again..5 mins later..gone back to slp 3.30..woke up fer no reason n can't go bck to slp..lay dere fer half hr..slp 4.15..some asshole msg me..not anyone i noe and the msg was pathetic "dun 4get the match tml..loser treat makan" wth.... aft 2 hrs..6 15: air con too cold..woke up..shivering..too tired to get the remote..6 .45 slpet 7: my bro woke up to prepare fer bball training..made hell lot of noise n i gave up..laze dere wait fer all my alarm clocks to ring.. and i'm sitll hyperactive at dance..hahaz! sian..tml dere's chemistry practical in the aftnoon i suppose..haiz..sian sian sian then no dance fer me on thursday n friday..SIAN!
bread spoke at Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Sunday, June 19, 2005
why do i have ta make things so complicated
argh!! ok..i feel lik a loser now. why didn't i realise that i have made things worse..telling my mei's n dar bout the matter...lately drew din look fer rest of 180 they all..then i kept asking him go find them la..but he keep saying dun wan. then aft reading my fren's blog..have i realised they quarrelled..if i haven't met 18o peeps, all these will not have happened..due to my immaturity; rashness n ignorance..i've created so many bloody trouble..maybe i shld have left the grp long ago.. anyway..heard frm my fren..my fren gt into trouble..but aft hearing the whole story..i think it's a smal lmatter..jus dat the oppo. party took it too seriously. anywya..hope she will b ok la..
bread spoke at Sunday, June 19, 2005
Saturday, June 18, 2005
woo~ saw tis test frm friendster..quite accurate though..hahaz... :: :: :: If all of the desserts listed below weresitting infront of you, which would you choose?Pick yourdessert, then lookto see what Psychiatrists think about you!(Sorry you can only pick one). >Angel Food Cake >Brownies >Lemon Meringue >Vanilla cake with Chocolate Icing >Strawberry Short Cake >Chocolate on Chocolate >Ice cream >Carrot Cake NO. You can't change your mind onceyou scrolldown! So think carefully what your choicewill be! OK - Now that you'vemade your choice, this is what researchsaysabout you! >ANGEL FOOD CAKE.. Sweet, loving, cuddly. You love all warm and fuzzy items. A little nutty at times. Sometimes you need an ice cream cone at the end of the day.Othersperceive you as being childlike andimmature attimes. >BROWNIES... You are adventurous, love new ideas, areachampion of under dogs and a slayer ofdragons.When tempers flare up, you whip out your saber.You are always the oddball with a unique sense of humour and direction. You tend to be very loyal. >LEMON MERINGUE... Smooth, sexy & articulate with yourhands, youare an excellent after-dinner speaker anda goodteacher. But don't try to walk and chewgum at thesame time, A bit of a diva at times, butyou havemany friends. >VANILLA CAKE WITH CHOCOLATEICING... Fun-loving,sassy, humorous. Not verygrounded inlife; very indecisive and lack motivation.Everyoneenjoys being around you, but you are apracticaljoker. Others should be cautious inmaking youmad. However, you are a friend for life. >STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE... Romantic, warm, loving. You care about otherpeople and can Be counted on in a pinch. You tend to melt. You can be overly emotional at times. >CHOCOLATE ON CHOCOLATE... Sexy; always ready to give and receive.Verycreative, adventurous, ambitious, andpassionate.You can appear to have a cold exterior orbut arewarm on the inside. Not afraid to takechances.Will not settle for anything average in life.Love tolaugh. >ICE CREAM... You like sports, whether it be baseball,football,basketball, or soccer. If you could,youwould like to participate,but you enjoywatchingsports. You don't like to give up theremotecontrol.You tend To be self-centred andhigh maintenance. >CARROT CAKE...You are a very fun loving person, wholikes tolaugh. You are fun to be with. People liketo hangout with you. You are a very warmheartedpersonand a little quirky at times. You havemany loyalfriends.
bread spoke at Saturday, June 18, 2005
not fated la
oh man..i'm still not fated to see idols..aft not being fated to see sly..i stop chasing..not i crazy over sebestian liao..jus now went mdc n met up wiv old frenz cos we all waiting fer the jue dui superstars. then dere's 4 ppl supporting sebestian: me, cheryl, sofia n shi ru..lol! then frm 5 i waited untill 7.28pm then my dad call so i bo bian..have to go back..then jus when i got on the cab n the cab already start moving..cheryl msg me say sebestian jus came out..haiz!! why didn't i wait another 4 mins!!! argh! but nvm..cheryl lemme talk on the fone wiv him then i din noe wad to say. he asked my name then i say..he lik paused awhile..think blured la..lol. then he "hor " then we ekpt hur hur-ing..so lame..sad..thursday then he dere again..dunno whether to go not sia..
bread spoke at Saturday, June 18, 2005
last nite was talking on the fone wiv drew when i received a sms saying..
"tell you something..i went fer the superstar recording.." and who's it frm...cheryl!!! ahhhhhH~ then she also support sebastian! same as moi!! hahaz. but sad thing is she told sebastian din sing very well then the judges failed him T_T me n drew talked untill 3+ then hung up cos his frenz kept ji-siaoing him..hahaz. then i keep tlaking bout sebastian to him..hope he dun mind ba..lol then jus now cheryl came online then open her chat window..i saw something..made me very ji dong....... she took pic wiv sebastian! ahhhhhhhhhh! then he sho cute manz..she kept telling me the stuff sebastian did then actually going mdc wiv her go find the idols but think she can't make it..haiz..anyway.. I LOVE MOI NAME NOW!! ahahz cos... Leong Wai See then sebastian Leong Wai Keong..wahahahhahahaz but he's jus an idol to me..lol SEBASTIAN LIANG WEI QIANG IS DA 2ND BEST!! FRENZ OF MINE SUPPORT HIM TO K!!!
ps: sebastian is 2nd best cos drew is owaes 1st..hahaz
bread spoke at Saturday, June 18, 2005
Friday, June 17, 2005
oh man..tis is pathetic. the light in my com room blew n i have to use the com in the dark..chat msn wiv my frenz in the dark..thus explaining the stupid typos -_____________-" anyway..tis aftnoon went makan at paradiz center wiv my family then aft dat went taka wiv moii mum buy my sch shoes. then somehow..mum was in good mood..she actually bought clothes fer me. usually; she will nag n dun buy de. but today she actually paid fer a 29 bucks top n a 44+ pants..think she've gt fever today..lol. came home..supposed to continue doing my xchange papers but reatarted me..came online n gt glued to the com, checking out poly courses; getting into more sh*t typing the wrong things in my blog n surfing the net lik retard. oh well..dats all fer the day.
bread spoke at Friday, June 17, 2005
argh!!why do i always rite the wrong things; at the wrong time; wiv the wrong words; and wrong tone; n i jus made matters worse myself..-bangs head- i shldn't have even wrote abt it in here n jus called her n explain everything..wadeva..wads done is done n she've already read it ..
bread spoke at Friday, June 17, 2005
ok..regrading the last entry bout the fren thingy.. it was all because of my misunderstanding. my fren told me she wasn't talking bout me at all but i jus gt paranoid n thot it was me. but reading her latest entry..can't help but flame a little. the last time i leak out her secret to andrew..she asked me did i tell andrew..i say i did. then the [dare] shit..i din say not comfirm..i say have..but since she dropped the matter..i also neva say liao. n i did rmb she does have a close fren in sec2 n 3 who broke off ties wiv her jus becoz of a guy n "kicked her in the ass" [as in backstabbing] budden..she once told me b4 she dun lik my attitude n a lot ppl also dun lik then she mentioned in her blog also so i thot it's me la. and the last time i saw her..is not i din say "hi"..but i did waved to her lo..she was looking at my direction then but she started talking to another guy walking behind me so i thot she was angry wiv me or wad la. then sitting at the table..she's lik facing another direction wiv her head on the table and i thot she not happy wiv me so lik dun bother bout me. even if i noe she has headache ..i wun ask...cos i assumed she wasangry wiv me so even i talk to her she wun reply..n again..think my assumption was wrong. then aft dat all the gals n her go mac so hw d hell i noe she's having headache. and when did i mentioned in my blog dat she backstabbed me? i did accuse her b4 finding out facts but i have my reasons why i did n they are listed above..if u [u'll noe who u are] dun believe..it's ok but i jus wanna say..sry dat i've accused u b4 getting facts rite n giving u attitude whenever i hav bad mood. if u're stiill angry..nth i can do then.
woo~ went to cheryl house ystd..so long din go le..lol. 1st to reach so me n cheryl were lik jus sitting at the bus stop waiting fer desiree n jazreel to come. supposed to meet at 1 budden..desiree came at 1.23pm! then the 3 of us waited fer jazreel to come then at 1.53! jazreel sent desiree a sms saying dat she can't come -__________-" oh well. so we went cheryl's house and watched wan quan yu le..lol. miss dat show sia n dat show is 100 times better than yu le bai fen bai. then got pretty bored so we down buy snacks n sat by the pool to eat. aft dat went to play [game of life] so crap..i have the 2nd highest salary..i only kena pay day lik 4 times ne -____________-" anyway..her mum bought by makan fer us [thks auntie!] then we ate and watch happy tree frenz..lol. so gross man..but we watched anyway. aft dat me n des went home. me went to look fer 18o peeps but only drew dere so i went home 1st then go down again. when reached the swing..someone have to gimme black face..i was lik "wadeva..i've expected it anyway". slacked untill 8+ then go home. and jus realised dat i still have so much xchange papers to do..argh!
bread spoke at Thursday, June 16, 2005
Wednesday, June 15, 2005
hypocrite- one who puts on a mask and feigns himself to be what he is not backstabber- To attack (someone) unfairly, especially in an underhand, deceitful manner sa jiao- act like a spoilt child ; act coquettishly [in a flirtatious manner] reason why i posted the meaning of these 3 words cos i very well know dat i'm PROLLY labelled as these 3 by someone i noe. i can seriously swear dat..i dun even noe when i hav backstabbed someone or 've been a hypocrite. nvm..ain't talking bout dat anymore. the thing i can't stand most is when ppl say i act ke lian. i dunno wad i did dat made ppl think i'm trying to act ke lian can. if talking bout my probs to other ppl is act ke lian i might as well keep my mouth shut, put on a mask n be the crazy gal again. but the prob here is..if i dun talk bout it..ppl think i'm not a gd fren so now i dunno if i shld keep my mouth shut or wad. but anyway..prolly she din come my blog to read cos all the fuckin' probs revolving my fucked up lyfe is ritten in here. i keep telling myself dat prolly she's taking things too hard; jus nid some time to cool down; a blog is a personal thing so she can rite wad she wans..i keep telling myself tis but frankly..i getting upset bout wad she rites bout her fren..who is obviously me. wad i can't stand mos is she thinks i'm using her to gain things..wth! ican say dat everything i do i dun think so far..so i dunno if wadeva i'd done will let ppl think bad bout me or wadeva. maybe frankly, i did take things fer granted. ppl here trying to b kind to me n i'm here being mean..am i? wadeva. sometimes i'm too kind *pukes* n let ppl get over my head..maybe i shall b the old mean me when sch reopen? argh! wadeva -peace out -
bread spoke at Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
was browsing thru some of my frens' blog when i saw wad was ritten..i realised wad a loser fren i was. think i better stop here..else ppl might think i'm trying to act pitiful..
bread spoke at Tuesday, June 14, 2005
i feel so selfish
somehow..i feel dat i'm being so selfish. being selfish to my frenz; andrew and my family. and i dun seem to be able to balance these 3 grps of ppl together. i feel lik some asshole loser. i know all these started rite aft my dad found out boutme n drew's relationship; n i hated my dad fer the harsh words he used..pointing towards my frenz, andrew n even me n dere's my mom who neva fails to pick a fight wiv me. now; every now n then my dad try to pick a conversation wiv me but i neva failed to make it short. recently..i was only the one talking n drew's the one listening..come to think of it..i've neva heard of him talk bout his probs. i feel so bad..he's always dere fer me n i'm owaes only bout myself; like today..i gt injured and he bought ointment fer me but i jus lik brushed him aside telling him it's nth..then we din talk much. n my frenz...i feel dat imma owaes venting my anger n unhappiness on them. though they din say it..i noe they're prolly upset bout my attitude. i jus dunno hw to handle things now..rite now..life seemed so meaningless to me; i always escape to studying when stuffs happened to me..i hated this but dats the only way fer me to forget my probs fer the time being. i noe i hav to settle this probs sooner or later..but i jus dunno hw to..argh! i feel lik some loser..
bread spoke at Tuesday, June 14, 2005
Monday, June 13, 2005
i was so damn rite..only frenz can make me luff..hur hurz. went out wiv cheryl, desiree n jazreel jus now. went to watch madaghasca [again fer me]. the show very nice la..the baby lemur was the cutest..hahaz. aft dat we went heeren to slack. me n cheryl wanted to buy braclets initially budden in the end din buy..hur hurz. then we wanted to buy the turtle frm action city..budden..no stock le!! sad-ed sia. so we went to take neos. instead..hur hurz. then makan-ed n had gd time shooting pearls..wahahahaha. met deon they all too..hur hurz. went down to hmv to look at cd..was walking ard then suddenly...
"qui huo de deng ai shi shou fang kai"
all of us turn n look..
saw this fella..with the headphones ong..singing! lol! then he saw us looking at him he stopped..we started giggling n walked away budden..he continued..even louder! wahahahah. sing untill super monotone lo! then we kept lol-ing n the fella walked away..wanted to follow him..see whether he's gonna sing again but we lost him..argH! got tired of orchard..went to j8..to look fer the turtle! in the end..deres only lik 5 turtles left n i saw this cute doggie!! so i bought it n cheryl her pooh. walked ard j8 then i went bck to find 18o peeps! finally saw them aft 3 days. sudo went ki siao over yuan yuan [the dog i bought] then kept hugging it with the plastic bag..lol. n everyone thot i bought fer drew de..lol. then efdim keep suaning sudo. n i finally saw wendy..haha..aft many days. but heard some sad news la. someone dere wanna find trouble wiv me n wendy..but i din really care.
drew cut his hair..hahaz! pity him la..cos i kept luffing at his hair..hahaz. then hav ta go tuition n tuiton was best...cos aft the many times kelvia a.k.a dao kia zhen dui me..i kept suaning him today..-evil laugh- so sad..hui wen not dere cos she went m'sia. anyway..chien yu was dere fer me..hahaz. then she keep saying my qing xu yao qi yao lou..hahaz. aft tuition drew went home wiv me. dats all fer the day...fer the pix..click on the links ba..hur hurz
i'm so gonna breakdown soon. ppl say u're find warmth in your homes wiv ur family..bloody shit man!!! prolly these saying never does exist in my world. my parents only think fer themselves and jus because of my attitude problem..they gt hostile to me..wtf is tis man!! i always respected my dad because he treat everyone equally but now..he dog eye see ppl low..jus because 18o peeps are in his eyes ..not the good ppl..he dun wan me to hang out wiv em. fark! dat time still say untill so nice "i wun interfere in u making frenz" n now wad happen; still say wad "u hang out wiv cheryl i still dun mind" pls!! is he trying to say all my frenz are bad? prolly the nerds are the only good ppl in his eyes..fark! "don't make me lose trustin u"..lik dat i also noe hw 2 say..my dad has long ago lose trust in me. prolly soon he wun even treat me as his daughter anymore. still rmb he said "i wun break u two up"..shit lo! he's already doing it now. i hate it man! they always think wads good fer me n plans everything out..i dun lik tis..can't i get a lfie of my own..argh! n my mum..always looking fer trouble wiv me..n the fact now is dat my dad prolly hates me..he's gonna side her even she's wrong. i used 2 put family as my 1st priority..now..it's been demoted to dunno wad already. wadeva it is..to me..frenship is more impt to me than anything cos i dun feel i hav kinship at all. even my relatives..some big mouth among my uncles prolly told my dad bout me n drew..4get it..i'm not bloggin' anymore..feeling sick of this hols..jus hope sch reopens quickly so 1/3 of my time ends up in sch n less at home. I HATE PPL WHO TRY TO RULE MY LIFE!!!
bread spoke at Monday, June 13, 2005
Friday, June 10, 2005
when brawdom steps in
woo~ life's pretty boring during the hols. bu shi study jiu shi look fer frenz; bu shi at home slack jiu shi go orcahrd chiong..sianz ! anyway.. gotta meet andrew they all ystd..we din talk much cos we were playing wiv this auntie's doggie..it's so cute kkz! i was drinking bottled blackcurrent juice then it kept licking the condensed water off the bottle..so cute!! then aft i finish drinking..still gt a little bit left so i dubbed the straw wiv the remaining juice then the doggie lick the straw..hur hurz..so cute lo. but it has a serious breath problem..hahaz. kept ji siaoing the dog..help him restyle his fur dat kind of thing. kept playing wiv it though it felt sleepy ..ahh!! very cute la. anyway..today was another boring day..going out fer dinner later. now dere's jui dui superstar..i scare cheryl go ki siao over some guy inside again..lol. somemore this here Os le..if she's gonna chase them..i'm outta comments. anyway..competition dun seems tight at all in the audition rounds. some toopid jokers..embrassing themselves..william hung-wannabes again ba. and there's tis blind fella..looked exactly lik someone in my cls..but i doubt my clsmate can sing dat well ba? hahaz. and dere's these cheena 14 yr old gal who dun look her age..she claimed she can sing better than one of the contestants but seriously..it sucked. and during the 1st audtion rounds..tis gal damn poor thing. the judge asked her "did u think of tis image urself" the gal said" no..i went to far east make over" n tis judge..damn straightforward..said "huh!? u went fer a makeover n looked lik dat!?" *in a bad tone la..* some ppl..their image a bit over le..in fact the whole show made me luff lik hell..especially when the 30+ ppl come in..singing songs i've neva heard b4..hahaz!! woo~ me feeling so mean..who cares! -evil laughs-
bread spoke at Friday, June 10, 2005
Thursday, June 09, 2005
Replies to taggiez
woo~ finally changed my blog skin. got kindda sick of the old one..hur hurz. n frankly speaking..IMMA IN LURVE WIV THE NEW SKIN!! actually it wasn't suppose to look lik dat..some picture of a guy n gal kissing but lil'-twin-star-crazy-me change the picture n ta-da! lil twin stars again! hahaz. getting kindda mad la. the music was actually tong hua-instrumental but i was kindda sick of the song n changed it to bei ying-instrumental >_<. can't think of anything else to rite so i shall reply to taggies..hur hurz wen: hey yo! my dad din really accept the grown up me..he's stil ltreating me lik a kid!! n he keeps having sudden moodswings..argh! anyway..if u nid someone to talk to i'll be dere..but prolly i'll end up crapping..hur hurz. sam: hey..i gt sick of the old skin la hahaz. n i'll be cheerful de la..hehez passer: huh? dun get wad ya mean n u are??? zoos: yo!!!!!!!!!! hey dude..i can't go into ur blog la..it's either my com's lag or ur blog's lag? prolly my com's the prob..hur hurz. well..the background is pink so have ta make things blend ma..dats why it's so pink in here..lol! kk..imma done bloggin' shall go bck to studying fer my prelims..hahaz
bread spoke at Thursday, June 09, 2005
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
jus now my dad n i talked again. well..at least he made it clearer today. so i jus have to blance sch work n drew to prove to him. somehow..i find it funny. my father keep saying i'm grown up blah blah blah but now he's treating me lik a kid -____-" seriously..thats pretty lame. anyway. today i was such a good girl..hur hurz. did the housework n do self-revision..lol. watched [The eye 10]..feel lik trying out some of the methods..wahahahahahaz. especially the junction one. tried the looking between legs one..but din see anything. haiz..27 more daysto prelims n i realised most ofmy materials are in sch..wth...oh well..shall continue studying other subs i have..
bread spoke at Wednesday, June 08, 2005
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
long time since i've blogged. many things happened the past few days and most ain't turning the way i want it..cut my hair..n it sucked. but there r other good things dat happened too la. but wad happened jus now ..tis aft noon was the worse..it's jus lik my dream has turned into a deja vu. few nights ago..i've dreamt dat somehow my parents found out bout me n drew and they tried breaking us up. i rmb crying when i woke up.. now my dad had comfirmed it and he does not hav a gd impression of drew. jus because drew dyed his hair he thot drew is some ah beng..pls! he's not. n the way he assumed drew is wad kind of person is way too much. i can't understand it..why can my bro go into a bgr secretly at 1st then when it becomes open to my parents..they dun do anything. nw this is happening to me why is my dad reacting differently. because i dun giv him enuff trust? why can't he ask himself why do i always lie. i seriously dun lik lying but everytime i wanna tell my parents things..there is always miscommunications..they neva understand me..they neva put themself in my shoes and they only noe wad they want frm me...they dun noe wad i really want. why can't my parents b lik other's..though other parents may not giv all the things their teen wants..at least they understand them. and i hate the way my dad assume things. he keeps thinking things must go his way..i just hate dat. jus lik wad happened tis aftnoon. he assumed some of us in the family wanted him dead..wad kind of father say such things!? sometimes i jus wish he comes up here n read my entries. he neva tried understanding me..or maybe he did but he just did not put in enuff effort. or maybe the problems lays wiv me..i dun open up to my parents enuff. but if i do..will they understand?
can't blog anymore..bloggin' bout tis jus made me feel worse...