2 wks has started since sch n i haven been blogging bout sch at all! guess i'm getting lazy. Well, sch was much eventful compared to hols, i jus have schwork n gl trainings apart from preparation for production. Seriously, i found myself enjoying maths lecture. YES u din read wrongly. I ENJOYED MATHS LECTURE cos thats the only module that seemed lik lecture was shorten, though it's actually a psychological effect when u do maths question. On the other hand, gt pretty irritated by my IPC [inorganic physical chem] lecturer. Frankly if u've known since my sec 3 time, u'll know how much i love inorganic chem and i practically ace that subject without studying it. But now, the stupid lecturer jus made everyone confused due to his inaccuracy + jia pang lang-ness + short tougue. I start skipping his lecture when he crapped about basics..jus to get myself un-confused.
I love microbio! so fun...but smelly. Today we made our own agar deep, agar slant n agar plants. abe was lik so cute la..she sort of messed up but aiya..everybody has their 1st time. Hmm...can't wait to see my saccharomyse cerevisiae culture next wk..hehe.
yes, regarding my title, im going into that now. Earth revolves so time travels. Time heals but time changes things. it seemed lik practically everything in my life changed since hols ended n sch started. I found myself distancing from mos of my pals n i dun seem to share the same channel as them. As in i'm an alien n i dun understand their language. I dunno, maybe i'd commited too much time to my interest n have neglected certain things around me n when i get bck to them now..everything changed. I dun feel lik i share the same bond with them, there seem to b a circuit breaker in between n i keep imagining them starting to hate me. ok i'm not imagining...i'm thinking of it. There are things i know but i jus choose to close one eye or totally ignoring it, i noe, im jus running away frm things
FUCK IT [lik woah..hw many centuries ago did u last saw the work fuck in my post]. i wrote a huge chunk n im not getting to my point. My point is..i think i've devoted too much time to my own interest/commitment [or wadeva u think dance is to my opinion] That i've ended up making ppl hating me for me. I know who's reading n well who's not. There are some thing i know but i jus keep one eye close. i know somebody thinks i love being the upperhand; i know somebody thinks i love to b the best and i know somebody prolly thinks that things shld go in my flow. Aiya...maybe I'm wrong n i may even sounded childish n stupid for typing stuff lik that but if situation gets out of hand..actually i also dunno wad i'll do..jus see how bad it goes.
so much for vulgarities...my gut gives me a strong feeling ppl will talk abt this post feeling damn bu shuang...behind my back? im getting a bad headache